Aaron,
I did not know you were getting through such hard time. Does your heart still hurt? You know, there is other fish in the sea. (Is this sentense correct?)
"All people are really lonely inside, but just don't admit it."___ I think it's true, because I feel it, too. I did not think about it so much when I was in the monocultural society. I had felt I belonged to something. Now I am living in the states, made friends, but am still not sure I really get involved in the communities. I can be isolated very easily.
Actually, I am enjoying the life here. We are having 'unseasonably' warm weather now! I hadn't heard the words "high in the lower 80s" for this several weeks. Last weekend, my friends and I went downtown to see "Harvest Festeval" and ate lots of apples. I love to go to street markets where they sell lots of fresh fruits, handcrafts etc... Those are not so common in Japan. After that we drove down to the bottom of Cayuga Lake which is not so far from Campus. This college is on a hill so we can see the lake below. I heard this lake is 50 miles long, but I have no idea how big it is. The cold weather still bother me, why we have frost in September?? But the autumn here is so pretty!!! And that cold wether makes trees beautiful. It's the matter of perspective, right?
Ah! I've got one thing to complain about! What the hell is that "fire drill"!!?? Nothing is more annoying than that. I was just taking it easy in the room wearing underwear when the alarm rang. How come I have to go cold outside putting my coat on in the middle of night??? To be strange, everyone takes it for granted that the practice is done without notice. What if it is real fire? For this reason, I never dream of staying here for the next semester.
Well, my eyes got tired, I'd better to go back my room, to finish my stupid homework, and go to bed or it is not good for my skin.....then I found myself sitting in front of computer at 6 o'clock in the morning.... I can't stop it once started. Maybe I am addicted e-mail,too. I got a few e-mails from Japan while I was writing this. It is a crazy cycle, but I guess that is how the things go....
Love, from Midori xxoo