We're having "SUMMER"! We had 80 degree today!!! I remember We had 20's and lots of snow last week, though... Is it summer that comes after winter...? Seriously. :P This morning I was given a ride to DMV to take written test, and tonight I've been to downtown to have 5 hour lecture which is required to take driving test. I'm all set. The time isn't so far that I don't have to carry my passport anymore. {It'll be loooooong story. Do you know that you can't drink without ID? So, I have to carry my passport all around with me, Even when I pay for a bill by check, they require my ID, too. When I went to College town Bagles the other day, they required not only my passport but also another identification!!! (and I showed my insurance policy or something... yes, I'm well prepared. :) Isn't a passport international id that works anywhere in the world?) Those are the time I really feel I'm a alian, and i guess that's why I'm working so hard on my driver's license.} Anyway, I'm pretty much satisfied with today's achievement.
One thing is remained to be understood by you. It's kind of hard to explain. But i think you will understand. When I talked Mummy the other night around 4am, she asked me if I would get anything that proofs I would have been studied here, and I did hagurakashita with my "mouth".... the subject changed naturally and I hang up, went to bed to sleep. But after that, I couldn't sleep 'cause I told a lie to Mummy. I got up and called mummy again, and explained to her what I really valued. (You know what? I wasn't like this before. I didn't feel guilty to tell "white lie" so that others don't get hurt. But recently I can't tell lie to myself. I can't do small talk, either. I do what i wanna do. I can't do anything else.)
Well, a language school isn't so bad place. Some people look really happy in there, but I... don't. It should be good to the very new-comers to the country, actually I got impressed pretty much when i first got there, because teachers speak English and they teach English in English. That was very new to me. I made lots of Asian student in there, but that's it! As the time went by, I got motivated less and less. But i think it's quite normal. Just think about it. That place is the "Asia no shuku-zu"!!! I found that it wasn't the America what I expected. Teachers speak very slowly(I get sleepy), and students only say "iiko-chan na kotae", and do small talk to kill time... I didn't find it's fun, I didn't find it would good for me, I didn't like the atomosphere, either. Certainly, there's kind of air that people think it's shame not to know things. Aren't we here to learn?! Some people pays too much attention to other person, and behave nicely to those who considered higher than them (What's the criteria, I wonder.), and look down those who considered lower. How come people can get so mean? Oh, don't worry about me, this is not my problem, but I can see these. (It's my close friend's problem) I just didn't think that I could see this stuff in the states. I guess it's one of the bad side of Asian education. I'm not saying that Asians are crap, I myself is an Asian. I don't have such prejudice. Some foreign students in my dorm. that studying in the regular courses are really nice to me. Ok, what's the point? The point is that time is limited, and i wanna use my time more productive, constructive way. You can learn from books anytime, anywhere in the world. But it's ONLY HERE that You can see America. I have chance and ability to get to know nice, real people in the real world.
I guess I talked to much. I wasn't going to talk that much, but now, you understand, desho? I'm really enjoying the life here. I really feel it was good choice to come over. I'll talk about that some other time. Later.
Midori